I am so happy that I have David and Isabella in my life now. I wish so many years had not passed. I have missed so much.
Isabella stopped by this afternoon. She brought me a picnic lunch. We had a heart-to-heart talk. She had a lot of questions and she had some burning anger that she needed to discuss.
Isabella was very angry about the fact that my spell caused me to lost touch with the family. She thought that I had a choice and that I chose the spell over my family. She couldn’t fathom how I could just throw all of the family away.
I explained to her how, after spell was placed on me, that Joan took the kids and ran off to California with them. I told her that I searched for years for them. Every time I thought I had a lead, it turned up to be a dead-end.
I told Isabella how lonely I was and how I cried night after night. I told her I sat every day wondering what the kids were doing, where they were and I wondered if they missed me as much as I missed them.
Isabella could tell how distraught I was just talking about Emily and Joshua. She saw that I was still upset about it, even after all these years. She apologized to me for her anger. She didn’t realize what I had suffered over the years and the agony I had gone through.
Isabella was genuinely sorry for the anger she had. She told me it was displaced and that she had no right to judge me until she had talked to me about it.
I asked Isabella about how she felt about the fact that the spell turned me into a monster. She told me it didn’t bother her at all. She said she sees me as a human being, not a monster.
I explained to her that a few months ago Helga did ask me if I wanted the spell reversed and I told her I said at this point in my life, it makes no sense to change now.
Surprisingly, Isabella agreed with my reasoning. She said that living for 160 years under the spell, there was no point in changing now.
Isabella asked how long I was going to live for under this spell. I told her that I may have another 300 years or so to go. She told me something that I certainly had not thought of. She told me that yes, I missed out on my first 160 years of the family but I am going to see many, many generations of the family over the next 300 years. She envied me because I would get to watch David’s future children grow up and their children and their children.
I will be around to tell future generations the true story of my spell so that the future generations won’t have to assume the worst.
I really felt good after Isabella’s visit. I was always scared about the future and what it holds for me. However, I am no longer scared.